Being Tested

Ryan and I decided that in January of 2008 we would start trying to have a baby. Our first month ended in sadness when out attempt to get pregnant failed my sadnesses ended only because I thought for sure it will happen next month. So here we are in February only a few days before we would find out if our attempts worked. When our week of trials began. Ryan has been studying for the CPA tests for almost a year now. I have been trying hard the whole time to be supportive and give him the time that he needs to study. I think I just had a breakdown of sorts this week when I really just needed him to spend time with me. We finally working things out so that we could spend Saturday evening together (which I loved). But then there was Sunday. We did our taxes only to find out that instead of getting money back we have to pay a little over $600. Then we woke up on Monday to morning to find out that I didn't have the pregnancy test I thought I had. I went outside to my car to go buy one quickly before we both had to go to work only to find that my car would not start. That didn't deture me I took Ryan's car and bought one. I got home and took it and found out that I was not pregant. This time instead of sadness I felt only anger. Because my car wouldn't start we took Ryan's car to his clients and then I drove it to work. My day at work wasn't much better and neither was Ryan's. As Ryan and I drove home that night we talked about trials and how it would be so much easier if we understood why we had to go through them. I know if you are reading thing it probably doesn't seem that bad, but let me tell you it was devistating. The one thing we want in this whole world is to have a baby. Last month when we went to the temple Ryan and I both felt that we were making the wrong choice so I guess I just don't understand why it isn't happening. I only hope that I will someday know why we had to wait.



As a side note, we watched my sisters little baby on Friday night. She was sick and often starting screeming at the top of her lungs. At that point I couldn't handle her anymore and Ryan without me having to ask came and got her and knew what to do to calm her down. One of my biggests fears of becoming a mother is that I won't know what to do for my baby and it is so comforting to know that I have a husband to will and wants to help. I love him.

Date Night

Ryan took me out last night for a date! We first went to go see the move Juno again. We went to a mantinee showing of it so naturally the thearter was almost empty. Ryan and I love to sit on the front row and put our feet on the bar. We were sitting on the right side of the theater and there were about 10 seats between us and these other peope. Right before the show started these two older ladies decided to climb over the people sitting on the front row and come sit right next to me. One of the ladies turned to me and said that they had some friends coming and they needed to save them some seats. I was a little bugged that they sat right next to me, but I understood if they needed to save some seats. Then a couple came and sat right behind Ryan and I and I noticed that they had a bag of popcorn. If you know me then you know that I HATE popcorn or any kind of food that makes noise when you eat it. I was dreading the first half an hour of the movie because that is usually about how long it takes for people to eat their popcorn. I was delighted that this couple was actually quiet about eating their popcorn, but that they were noisy with the bag. They kept passing it back and forth and shoufling the popcorn inside it and honestly after about a half an hour they weren't done. In fact they ate that bag of popcorn through the whole movie!!!!

But don't worry the story gets even better. As the show started to get going and it kept getting funnier the old ladies sitting next to me (who by the way never had anyone show up and come sit by them) kept making comments to each other. I could tell they thought they were wispering but were hard of hearing so they were talking pretty loud. Their comments most often were funny, they were generally repeat a line of the movie they thought was funny and then laught. At one point in the movie someone was laughing so hard they snorted and everyone in the theater heard and started laughing. I turned to Ryan and said "this is the loudest movies I have ever been too (and I said it really loud)" and right on que the gentlemen sitting right behind us starting drinking his drink and it was all gone.

All in all it was actually funny to be there with so much noise Ryan and I laughed so hard!!!

Well after that we decided to try and brave going to Cheese cake factory. Well so did like 100 other people. The wait was 2 1/2 and I didn't want to wait until 10:00 pm to eat. So we go some cheese cake to go and then went down the street to Mimi's cafe. It was really yummy!!! Then we went home!!!

What a fun date!!!

Lazy

Hooray for a 3 day weekend. I better enjoy it too because my next 3 day weekend wont happen until May (that is entirly too far away). I am proud to say that I havd done absolutly nothing this morning and I even woke up at 8:00 am. I sat around watching TV all morning and it was so nice. My cute cat Jeeves came and sat right next to me because he wanted to be pet. How cute is he? Well now I have to go get ready for the day to really start. I am going to my In Laws to practice piano and they are giving me a ride up to the U for a basket ball game. Then tonight Ryan and I are going on our Valentines day date. I am so excited!!!!

Valentine

Yesterday was such a good day! Ryan and I had a good breakfast together before he went off to take one of the CPA tests (which I am sure he did great on)! Then my cute husband surpised me at work with flowers (which I really was hopeing he would get me)! Then I went home early to create a balloon scavenger hunt for him! It turned out cute and it was a lot of fun! It ended in our downstairs family room where I had about 20 balloon with helium surrounding a table I decorated! I love doing fun things like that! What a good day!

Valentine Clue

"I'm Falling!"

"You're fine!!!"

Robbery

I had the opportunity today to go to a training on how to train about robbery. I myself in my 6 years working in financial institions have been robbed twice. They invited a police officer who deal specifically with robby to come train us today. I was very excited for the opportunity to learn a better way to train my tellers on it. This officer talked to us in detail about robberies about how to protect yourself from being robbery, what to do during a robbery and about after. In his detailed presentation I kept flashing back to my robberies and the longer I was there the more nervous and scared I was becoming. And the officer ended by showing us a video of a fast food place being robbed at gun point. Needles to say I was scared. I talked to him after and he told me that I would probably have nightmares tonight about it. Even talking about it now makes me nervous. Well I guess we will see if I sleep well tonight.

Nothing Profound

I have nothing profound to say today. Yesterday I wasn't feeling well and ended up staying away until around 3:00 am this morning simply because I couldn't fall asleep. Ryan told me this morning that once I fell asleep that I started talking in my sleep. Sometime I think about recording myself just so I can hear what I say in my sleep (maybe someday). I went to work feeling totally exhausted. My day however went suprisingly well. I got off work early and layed around the house and now I plan on going to bed early. All in all it was a pretty good day. I hope tomorrow goes just as well. Only 2 full days until Valintines!!!

You are my Sunshine

Ryan woke me up this moring by singing "You are my Sunshine" to me. It was so sweet. He always has a way of making me feel so special!

Chick Flicks

I just got back from seeing 27 Dresses with my in laws. Okay so I am such a girl, but I loved it!!!! So cute! It was fun to watch it made me laugh so hard I cried. But the best part about watching that movie is that at the end I wasn't sad. In my pre-Ryan life I would go see cheezy love story movies and be so sad at the end because I wanted to find someone like that. Anyhow even if the movie was super good I always found myself almost depressed about it. Well now it is different. I have the man of my dreams. The one who makes me feel like I am the most beautiful woman in the world. The person that I want to spend every waking moment with. So finally these movies really are fun to go see. Two thumbs up for 27 Dresses. By the way I heard Kathryn Heigle was raised LDS?

Okay I'll admit it...

So as much as I don't want to admit I guess I will. I watch The Hills and Laguna Beach. I blame it all on my friend Keri. She was doing my hair one day and asked if I watch The Hills. I said "no" but somehow that intreagued me. So I started to watch it and after like 2 shows I was addicted. And now the last time Keri did my hair we were talking about The Hills and she asked if I watch Laguna Beach. I told her that I have never seen it so what does she do? She pulled out the first 2 seasons and sent me home with them. So of course I have been watching them.

First of all can I say Lauren is like night and day different. I don't know if she just wised up to how dumb she was in high school or what but wow. And what was the deal with Stephen I just don't get him? Does he always have to have two girls liking him? Well now that I have seen both I must admit that The Hills is 10 times better, but even more than that I need to stop watching TV.

Is he staring at me???

I am probably one of few people in the world who have a picture of that actual first time they met their spouse. Ryan was in a fraternity in college and I was in a sorority we had an activity together. We were put into groups and given a bag of random stuff and had to come up with a skit based around a theme. The picture to the left is of us trying to figure out what we were doing. Ryan is the one far to the right staring at me while I dressed up one of his friends. In the end we actually dressed Ryan up as aunt Jamima. It was way funny. At one point I got a video of all of this, but it somehow dissapear??? I don't think we actually talked that night, however Ryan claims to have tried to talked to me. I guess we will never know. A couple of months later is when we started dating and it took me a couple of dates to remember where I had met him before and I think he was hoping I wouldn't remember.

Things I LOVE

(In no particular order)
1. Ryan
2. My Family
3. Suprises
4. Reminising
5. Finding things I fogot I had
6. Hot showers on a winter night
7. Reading other people's Blogs
8. Planning for the future
9. Texting my husband
10. Snuggling
11. Massages
12. Purring kitties
13. Kittens
14. Christmas
15. Good hair days
16. New Clothes
17. New Shoes
18. Going to the Temple
19. Having that feeling that you are doing the right thing
20. Singing
21. Pretty much anything with sugar
22. Vacations
23. Chick Flicks
24. Cooking new recipes
25. Rainy days
26. First snow fall of the season
27. Sleeping in
28. The smell of spring
29. Purple
30. Season Changes
31. A good home cooked meal
32. Moving furniture around

Wednesday

Well my first night to start learning about juggling and I am just sitting on my butt. We'll see how long that hobby lasts! .
Today was a pretty good day, however it did not start out as such. I has to start my day off by leaving the house at 6:45 am to go to the dentist to get my retainers/mouth guard. Ever since I started working on this huge conversion project at I work I started clenching my jaw. And well needless to say it won't go away so the dentist said I needed a mouth guard. Any how I had to get a cavity filled a few weeks ago and that particular tooth had been really sensitive to cold. The dentist said that the filling should help. Well I hasn't seemed to help and he told me it might need a root canal! What?!?!?!?!? I was so sad/mad. I have to wait it out for another two weeks to see if it gets better then we will see. So that was my morning. Work went well and I got to leave early. I went to Kohls and bought 3 baby shower presents for under $50. I was pretty impressed with myself. Not only that I bought 3 black and white bags with different patterns and attached cute pink cards. Man I am good!

Juggling

Since Ryan started studying for the CPA tests (last year) I have been telling myself that I need to take up some kind of hobby to keep myself busy while he is studying. Until now my hobby has been watching TV (mosty Law and Order as of lately), but today I decided that I want to learn how to JUGGLE!!! My good friend Jill come over and show me a little bit of it today and man alive is it hard. If I knew how to attach a video of me trying to juggle I would, but since I don't know how I will save you all the trouble of laughing at me. Anyhow since we haven't told anyone about our blog yet we will see if I know how to juggle once everyone learns about our blog. Good luck to me!!!

President Gordon B Hinckley

When Ryan and I arrived home last Sunday from visiting his parents we recieved a call from my sister Jenica that President Gordon B Hincley has passed away earlier that night. My first thought was shock because I hasn't heard he was sick. My second thought was sadness because I would miss him. And my third thought was happiness because he has finished his work and could now be with his beloved wife. President Hinckley has been the President of the Church for most of my life and therefore most of my memories of a prophet are of him. What a truly amazing man he was. You can truly see his love for this gospel in everything that he did. I always looked forward to hearing his talks and especially his testemony at conference and how I will miss his sweet voice. Our prayers are with his family at this time that I have no doubt will miss him because I will miss him so much. What an amazing man our Heavenly Father put here on this earth to help us. He did so much for this Church in his life. I look forward to meeting him in heaven and thanking him for his work on the earth. I also look forward to having a new President of this Church. I know that he will lead just as well as President Hinckly.

Super Bowl

My family hosts a Super Bowl party every year that we were suppoesed to go to. About 10 minutes before we were going to leave it started snowing really hard and was looking like a blizzard so we decided we were going to go. That however only lasted about 10 minutes so we decided maybe we should still go. Go go into my car that first of all had a hard time starting (which never happens), but we thought maybe it was just cold so we trecked on. Then about a half a mile down the road my car starts to act strange and eventually stops. For about 10 minutes it wouldn't start so we called my dad for some help. And of course when help was on the way it started again and we were able to make it home. Onced we got here we decided that maybe we weren't supposed to go to that party and decided to stay. What a fun Sunday!

Hair Cut

I decided to be drastic last night when I got my hair cut. I cut bangs and a lot of layers. Everyone that I talk to says they like and it doesn't look too different. I am still getting used to it so I don't know if I like it yet. I have realized though that I never like my hair cuts the first few days after I get them. It is hard getting used to doing my hair different. Well I hope in a few days I like it. I guess we will see.