Saturday, February 25, 2012


This beautiful girl came into the world this last Wednesday. I was scheduled to go into the hospital Wednesday morning to be induced, but around midnight I started having contraction and about 3 am we decided to go to the hospital. The staff found it pretty funny that I was scheduled for induction a few hours later.

By the time they got me checked in I thought I was in the worst pain of my life (I thought for sure I had to be dilated to at least a 7). Turns out I don't think I could ever have natural child birth I was only dilated to a 2 1/2. Needless to say that I was very surprised.

My labor with Wilson lasted 23 1/2 hours and because of that Ryan and I had packed tons of stuff to keep ourselves entertained.

Our plan was to get some sleep after my epidural and then let the fun begin.

The anesthesiologist came and gave me my epidural. I felt soooo much better! Then they broke my water.

Ryan and I relaxed and were able to sleep a good hour and a half or so.

Once the nurse came back in I mentioned that I felt like I might want to push (thinking in my head there is no way so something might be wrong). The doctor checked me and somehow magically I was at an 8 1/2. I was almost in shock. She then told me that it would probably about an hour before we could start pushing.

20 minutes later I felt even more strongly I needed to push. They checked me again and I was at a 10. Ryan and I were in shock.

After pushing through 3 contractions she was here!

Unfortunately there was maconium in my water so when she was born the NICU had to take her right away and make sure she didn't inhale anything. Which she didn't! But the meant it was a little while before Ryan and I could hold her.

It was amazing to give birth another time. I decided to use a mirror this time. It was honestly so cool to be able to see her born.

I am so happy Elsie has joined our family. Wilson is absolutely in love with her! Ryan is mesmerized by her! And I couldn't be happier!

Tuesday, February 21, 2012

To my Elsie

To my darling Daughter the night before her birth.

My life is going to change for the better tomorrow because you will be here. The thought of holding you in my arms brings happy tears to my eyes. Oh how long I have waited for you and now here you come. I wish so much many things for you, but here are the things that I dearly hope you will always know:

That I love you unconditionally. You have my whole heart and there is nothing in this world that will ever change that.

That you have a father in heaven who knows and loves you unconditionally as well. Who will always be there for you.

That I know that the church is true. The we have a loving father in Heaven and a brother who gave his life so that we can return to live with him. Elsie the church is true and I hope so much that you will learn that from me and your father and hold closely to it for the rest of your life.

Words can't express the love that your family feels for you. I hope you come into the world tomorrow knowing and feeling that. And that you will never ever forget it.

I love you my darling Daughter,


Friday, February 17, 2012


Okay so I know that I have been terrible at posting and haven't done it in two months. I have lots of pictures and things to post, but not the patience to do it. Still no baby, but I am hoping she comes anytime. Maybe then I will be more dedicated to posting.

This past week a friend from my ward asked me to do some maternity photos for her since this is her last child. I have never done maternity photos before so of course I jumped at the chance. I am still working on the right editing, but really wanted to post what I have done. So here are my favs.