A post a long time in the making

Not even sure where to start. A little over a year ago Ryan and I decided it was time to try to have another baby. Well to make a long story short, last year we had three miscarriages. I have debated for a year if I should post this or not, but I came to the conclusion that I should. Telling the world (or the short list of people who read my blog) helps me to feel more understood and maybe I could help someone else through the same struggles.

Two of the three happened on their own (which I am thankful for) and the other I had to have a D and C (while Ryan was out of town). Not a fun thing to go through, but was so blessed by family and friends during a hard time.

It was needless to say a hard year, but a year that made our family closer together. In January we were able to see a specialist who told us that as far as he could tell nothing was wrong with us, but bad timing between pregnancies and a 1 in 4 chance of everyone loosing a baby. He told us we needed to wait 6 months before trying again. And well, we are pregnant again!!!

We have had two ultrasounds so far and after the last one they told me we only had about a 1 to 2% chance of the same type of miscarriage. We are feeling really good about things. I am about 12 weeks along and sicker than a dog.

I have yet again been so blessed by family and friends to take care of me and my family during this hard time. Poor Wilson is bored out of his mind and doesn't really understand why I want to spend most of my time in bed. But people have been generous and have taken Wilson to their house to play. He loves it and it gives me time to rest. I am crossing my fingers that the sickness will get bearable soon.

I am so truly grateful to my Heavenly Father for the opportunity we have again to welcome another spirit into our family! I also know that sometimes we don't know or understand the trials we have to go through, but that they are his way of making us stronger people.

That being said February can not get here soon enough.