Thoughts on pregnancy

Wilson's birthday post is coming I just need to upload the picture.

Pregnancy I must admit is one of the hardest and longest 9 months of my life and because of everything that happened last year this pregnancy feels like it has lasted a year and nine months.

Lately I have been thinking about this a lot. Maybe it is because for the last month and a half someone in my house has been sick and inevitably I get sick as well which makes pregnancy harder. Or maybe it is that I am now 27 weeks and my body is tired and achy and ready to be done. Whatever the reason I find myself thinking about how I can't wait until February.

I have been trying to not only think of the hard things but also about the great things about pregnancy so here you have it.

1. I will get a baby out of all of this! I honestly can not wait to go through labor and see my sweet little girl. To get to hold her in my arms. I can't wait for Ryan to hold her and for Wilson to finally understand what we are talking about.
2. I love when Ryan comes home and puts his hands on my belly and gives me a kiss. And when he asks how all three of us are doing.
3. Feeling the baby move around. I love the reassurance it gives me that she is doing okay.

Now the hard stuff.

1. That people just don't understand how terrible I feel. I know that a lot of people have been pregnant and felt miserable, but honestly I think every pregnancy is different and different for every person. No one really knows how I feel.
2. I get so frustrated by people who are not sick during pregnancy. I know life has its challenges, but wow this isn't easy. Even worse is when people love pregnancy and openly tell you. It makes me feel terrible for feeling so terrible.
3. I hate that none of my clothes fit or are comfortable and that means maternity too. I honestly have never been more comfortable in a dress. I just want to be comfortable.
4. Honestly worrying that something might go wrong between now and delivery. I don't really have any reason to worry. Things went really smoothly with Wilson, but because of all the trouble we had last year I can't help but worry that there might be something waiting to happen.
5. I think worst of all I really hate that people are judging me for the things that I can't do. I had tried really hard to figure out my limits and the limits for my family and do what is best for all of us. Which inevitably means I have to give up some of the things I could do before. I wish people wouldn't pass judgement.

I must admit I really struggled if I should write this post, but it really was therapeutic. Even if no one reads it at least I understand a little more about how I feel.

I really am excited to welcome this new little spirit into our family and lives. I love her unconditionally already. I can't wait for February to get here, but I know it isn't my timeline so I will just keep plugging along and doing my best to take come of my body and hers as well.

Serving in the Young Women in my ward I had the opportunity to work really closely with the Bishop over the past year and his wife who was one of my teachers and my visiting teaching partner. I can truly say that I love both of them and their family! I was honored when they asked me to take their family pictures. We went up a canyon just in time to catch some of the colors of fall. One of my favorite photo shoots! Thanks to the Perkins for their amazing family and service to everyone around them!

Family Pictures

A few weeks again my Aunt asked me to take her family photos before my cousin left for the military. I was honored and so happy they turned out well!

Quiet Time

A few months ago Wilson stopped taking naps (just in time might I add for me to need naps because of pregnancy). So we started to do quiet time in him room. He can play, read books (really he just makes a big mess) for about an hour so I can lay down. There have been a few times (too few if you as me) where I come to get him out of his room and I will find him asleep. The first few he would actually crawl into bed like this picture.


Then it moved to more random places. Like this. (Please note the large mess surrounding him.)


And this is what I found today. Right in his doorway.


Like I said it doesn't happen often, but when it does man is it cute!

3 Year old pictures take 2

This morning I woke up and decided to try pictures again. I got a cute sweater for Wilson for a screaming deal at JC Penny and thought it would look great. After a few errands we were off. My friend and I have been talking about checking out daybreak again so that is where we headed.

Cute kid + cute scenery should = cute pictures right?

Well turns out your cute kid needs to smile at the camera too (something that use to happen but has since changed). These three were the best I could do. I see another photo shoot in Wilson's future!

3 Year old Pictures

Yesterday I was headed out to help a friend with some pictures and decided to take some of Wilson's three year old pictures. I didn't get a lot, but some turned out cute!

Amy

Amy is one of my Young Women and was nice enough to let me take her Senior Pictures! I had so much fun taking her pictures and as you can see she is super photogenic! Enjoy my favorites!